YAYA PAPAYA
Musings of a teenage drama queen who has taken a break from the education system and is living THE life.
It is 130 am and I am not asleep coz I foolishly drank coffee. Nobody is online to entertain me. OMG SO BOREDZ.
On to other random things, I fell down on my backside and now my backside hurts like CRAZYYY. Im such an oxymoronic klutz. Able to run around Singapore in stilletos but can’t walk down the staircase safely in slippers.
Ok, it’s been a long time since I’ve updated but LIFE HAS BEEN SO AWESOME I DUNNO WHERE TO BEGIN.
OMGS. I realise how so many years of education made me forget (or perhaps, even deprived me) of what it’s like to live. LIVE WITHOUT WORRYING ABOUT GRADES (Ok, maybe I still worry bout my SAT grades. haha), WITHOUT WORRYING ABT PORTFOLIO SHIT..
JUST DOING THINGS, AND HELPING PEOPLE BECAUSE YOU REALLY WANT TO. AWESOME POSSUM.
I met so many new people this year and got soo many different experiences this year. Just ended a hosting stint for which I actually got PAID. omgosh right? who knew i could make money from doing the stupid things i used to do in jc. ok lah, it wasn’t much (AT ALL), but the experience was kinda cool. Omg I dun feel like going into Uni at all. HAHAHAHAHA. OK IM KIDDING MOM.
LAST DAY OF WORK TMR!! technically, its not even work lah. Just clearing up my stuff and saying goodbye to really awesome friends I’ve made throughout the year. GONNA MISS TPJC SOOO SOO MUCH!!
haven’t been updating much because life has been hurling lots of shit at me. I nnever knew teaching could be so stressful. On top of having to mark an endless pile of scripts within a tight deadline, I have to continuously chase after selfish kids who have no idea that their procrastination places, not only themselves, but also me into a deeper pile of shit.
THEN, I took the wrong bus to get to Republic Poly which is in Woodlands. I woke up from my nap to find myself in Hougang. Haha okay, that was kinda funny. But the $15 cab fare to RP was NOT.
I think if there is one thing that teaching has taught me, it would be patience. Too many times, I have had the urge to really just SCREAM at my students. LIKE DUDE I CARE ABOUT YOUR GRADES, CAN’T YOU CARE ABOUT IT TOO??!?!
But I have TRIED MY BEST to stay away from that, though I have lost my temper at some classes. (In my defense, they seriously deserved it. Hahaha)
But this is immature. Yes, it is. And it gives me high blood pressure. And the job pays too little to cover medical fees. Hence, all the more I shouldn’t get angry.
I think I’m just so stressed out from all the deadlines and some my students are being so insensitive in making me chase them for their work. Its like a mixture of anger + dissappointment + stress = BADD DAYYY.
With that being said, some of my students have been so sweet lately. It reminds me of why I am staying on. Hee hee hee. =)
YAYY!! BEFRIENDING SESSION WITH THE APS KIDS AT REPUBLIC POLY TOMORROW. I CANNOT WAIT!!!
Officially finished the marking pile for now. Tomorrow I’ll get a new set, and next week I’ll get NEWER set. WAH LAO WHY CAN’T TEACHING JUST BE ABOUT TEACHING.
Eh shit lah I totally have not touched my SAT books for damn long. I hope that by teaching 17 year olds how to critically read it will SOMEHOW make me do better for SATs. SCREW THESE AMERICANS LAH. ENGLISH SO TECHNICAL FOR WHAT. THEN MATHS LIKE KINDERGARTEN STANDARD.
So many things going on this week!!
Am sooooo excited!!
Winnie was right. I should stop slacking in office and get more work done so that I can actually make good use of my clocked in hours. HAHA.
FASTING MONTH STARTS TOMORROW!!!!!!!! yaayyyyy!!! WILL BE A GOOD MUSLIM GIRL GO TERAWIH (ALMOST) EVERY NIGHT.
ALMOST THERE. ALMOST DONE WITH MARKING. COME ON. LET’S DDO THIS. seriously, this job is taking over my life. Luckily I like my classes. If not I would have quit!!
Its 3 am and I have finished a LOAD of my marking pile, despite all the things I had on today.
Now, I dunno why as I am lying down on the sofa in the wee hours of the morning, I am feeling so insecure like never before. It’s got to do with my future, of course. Now that the deadline is approaching, I’m just scared something will screw up. Again. Like last year.
My neighbour was celebrating his 21st birthday today and mommy asked, “What do you wanna do for your 21st birthday?” We then broke into awkward silence.
God knows if I’ll still be around in Sg when I’m 21. I hopee not. But looking at how unpredictable life has been for me, I might probably stay around for awhile more. I am not looking forward to Hari Raya coz everyone will ask me where I’m gonna go and I honestly. don’t. know. what. to. say.
OK, I WILL ACT ON THE MARKING PILE. after my 7 hour rehearsal… hee hee hee. for now, i’m SUZIE THE GLAMOUROUS DIVA. =)
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XINXUAN THIS IS FOR YOU. SCREW YOUR SLUTTY “FRIENDS”!!!
ahhhh I KNOW I GOT A LOT OF MARKING TO DO BUT I FEEL SO LAZY.
I can’t believe the stupid s19 boys were playing catching with me! THOSE IDIOTS WERE RUNNING AWAY FROM ME COZ THEY DIDN’T DO THEIR WORK. Would have totally scolded them if not for the fact that my glam points would totally go down, and they were totally not worth it. hahaha.
omg seriously, i realised i have totally become such a mother since i started taking over my classes. Doesn’t help that my students are like little kids. Kids that make you laugh and make you SO pissed off within the same hour.
CHNG XIN XUAN IF YOU ARE READING THIS, I WANNA TELL YOU THAT I MISS YOU =(
Just one year ago, we were all in JC, stressed out as we count down to A levels. And tomorrow, my best friends are all gonna start on a new chapter of their life.
I suddenly feel so sad. Its like, we used to spend every waking moment of our lives together. It just feels weird that now that we’re 19, we going to be leading separate lives, heading in a different direction.
Aisha’s gonna be in NUS, Royce in NS, Xinxuan in Laselle and god knows where I will end up in.
I know these are going to be my friends for life. I know that 10 years down the road Xinxuan will still be my BFF. I know that 10 years down the road we’re still gonna meet up once in awhile to bitch about life. Its just very sad that we’re not leading the same life any more.
I’m just feeling very nostalgic. I may complain that JC days were the worst times of my life, but it was ironically also the best. Laughing at people. Doing crazyy stuff on stage. Being a drama queen. Complaining about teachers. Dancing like a slut.
GOOD TIMES.
Okay, soo back to another sleepless Sunday night! I will be embarking on a journey of what it REALLY feels like to be a teacher. 4 classes to carry till promos! Alright students, your cher will level you up manzzxz!
